The Often Misunderstood Ones

gonna be a tough ride. a harsh term. a grey period. but im so gonna be a superman.

baby its time for miracle. nope, i am not trying to promote Adam Lambert's Time For Miracle. (in fact i just did -.-) i really believe i done a miracle and there are more to go. basically, this week has been mugging bio non-stop and it has seriously considered part of my lifestyle to just read an article of that thick book. By now, you should know what miracle i just accomplish :).

yeaps, mastering bio is part of this extremely ambitious plan. it even coincide with my passion for learning french,which means i have to whack 2 books now. everyday seem to be busy for me though i think the fruit of this labour would be very pleasing to the eye. i got to work smarter.

also, this week, a couple of my friends' birthday just arrived! so let me wish you all here. emm, nicholas,boonpin,guohao,daniel lee. happy birthday to all of you and may i wish the current you would have advanced and progress much more from last year. may i pray in the upcoming year ahead, your health and spiritual growth level would continue to develop and improve, making you a better and stronger person each year. may my blessing be to all of you and that you be free of worries.

Jake is seriously jaked-out recently but i know w14f would be backing me up as usual eh? lets all work hard together and yups, the end symbolise a brand new start.

Au Revoir !

my rj for today's cognitive :

i think for today's case, i can do way better. i dont know if u can see, but i wasnt in good shape today. and i have to say the mistakes committed by my team today can be partially blame on me as i wasnt in a right frame of mind to aid them. but of course, this cannot be used as an excuse.

i always believe cognitive is something that is really simple or rather fundamental building blocks to our applied knowledge. which is actually not something too difficult to everyone. just that you have to think rather logically and more in depth than usual. if i could do something to contribute better to my team's learning, that will be to give them a clearer view of today's problem. believe most of them or rather the class even do not have a clear image of today's problem which i seen most of them making mistakes today.

so rather than pushing blames or so, i would gladly take the humble pie and say today, it was me who failed them. and i make sure such performance will not be seen again.

sigh. i wasnt able to concentrate at all for today. it was a simple case of total brain deficiency and i felt like i let down my team, the class and even myself. but honestly, there isnt much i can really do to help myself today. it was a landslide situation. and when mikael says the team's grade depend on me, that was the part that hurts most; bull's eye. but well, its over and theres nothing much i can do about it besides ranting here. so yup. Au revoir monsieur. even rome will fall one day. what more a living flesh that is so feeble.

ok the title is crap. hahahaa. i saw Emma Watson(my sweety) picture in burberry. here you go.

 

simply had me looking at it literally for 5 seconds with my head tilted 90 degress to the left while walking in Orchard Road.

how dangerous ! but its worth it :)

 

AU REVOIR !

 

 

 

this week has been very torturing to jake, giving him problems after problems both personal and studies. in fact im beginning to doubt whether if i can meet the standard i set for myself. i really hope next week, mikael wun be single-handedly supporting the team again. i want to help him and i need to.

 That part, i want to thank 2 pillars of support.. they are just so important as they are my blue-print to my future. God and W14F, u are praised. especially this week, it shows me how much it meant to me that your support really brought the flame and light to the darkest of times. to be honest, im feeling how many in the class are now. very dejected and really really tired. dejected because of certain problems which everyone has, private or no while tired is that, i drive my body too much and that it seems on the verge of falling apart. Next week is the crucial week. i cannot fall so quick.

lets work hard together my friends. UT = Utterly Torturing. lets get through this together. anw, have any plans on where to go aft UT? I WANT TO GO KARAOKE. :D

 

EDITED. joke of the week cancelled due to typical misunderstandings and communications. as u know, the world is that dumb. that why RP has cognitive lesson. but apparently its useless. :).

 

AU REVOIR !

On this day of your life, Ernest, we believe God wants you to know ... that everything that irritates you about others, is your key to understanding yourself.

What angers you in another person is an unhealed aspect of yourself. If you had already resolved that particular issue, you would not be irritated by its reflection back to you.

 

Just at this moment, that bio relief teacher gave me C. wow great!  =.=".  By this saying, i guess God is telling me i have the same problem as her. HAHAHA. just joking! its timothy's birthday and happy birthday to you matey. god bless you and i wish everything is going well for you.

and nigel, im feeling equally sucky at times too. lets just buckle up for UT yeah? MR FLANNAN.

and honestly, i have no idea why am i posting all these in class. BUT, i saw rockergirl on the bus today! but sadly, she caught me lookign at her. =.= . btw, one of RP's tree has beehive. LOL.

 

Au revoir !      -FRENCH ROCKS

hello folks, im once again fed with the Pill Of Sorrow. once again, i gonna blast u guys with emo stuff and melancholy craps.

well, i always had this contradicting mindset of "Deserving". sometimes i think i deserve better, and sometimes i think i dont deserve a darn thing. well, this eccentric mindset, indeed has its influence over me. or rather, it kinda "form" me. to be more precise and not beating around the bush, i had this mindset that we humans should have their own rights and principles.

to give an example, just a couple of hours ago, i just quarrelled with my mum over mannerism. apparently she thought im done with my food so she could dump her rubbish on my plate. for those who know me, i am the type of person who respect table ethics alot, and by doing so, my mum just insulted me indirectly.

i tried to explain to her, but she got so furious that practically nothing enters her shut ears. so i was thinking if i did the right thing by standing firm on my so called "principles". but true enough, when i ponder over it, it does make sense as what would life be without principles? its like a country w/o law and order. it would be a hella mess.

i do admire ppl who read my blog without fail. so apparently i think my blog is practically UNINTERESTING and i know i sound like esmond(cog faci). but still, thanks for the view. u must have a reason to follow. 

time for something else. had my 1st lab session with w14f. ehh, i didnt take much pics and mostly with others so ya u get me. ehh, i have yet to see an experiment that is more dull and practical as this one. i basically just weigh the stuff and measure to the correct millimetres. can sound quite dumb seriously. but well, im looking forward to thursday cognitive and friday mathematics. im loving maths so much these days. oh yeah, i have stretched my leg back into french and i hope i can learn more about this exquisite and cultured language.

god bless and have fun. now say bye to eccentric jake. :)

( indian version of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star rocks ! )

Philosophy does not promise to secure anything external for man, otherwise it would be admitting something that lies beyond its proper subject-matter. For as the material of the carpenter is wood, and that of statuary bronze, so the subject-matter of the art of living is each person's own life.	”
—Epictetus

i really like this saying from Epictetus which practically summarises how we explain

the term Philosophy to others. indeed philosophy is like a virtue, it is something internal

and a vision which only those who comprehend would witness.

 

a pretty dejected way to start this post but i do have to admit what esmond said was true.

i still have a long way to go. sian.  anyway, its friday today! and my day started perfectly

with a babe seating next to me and a hot guy in front. for that bus journey, my eyes were busy collecting datas of the 2 beautiful images.
 

hehehe. just read about Stoicism, which is partly what made me. The ultimate of virtue.  maths is starting soon, and i heard i have to solve some "Z-Axis" stuff. so... i guess i can have som fun later on.

a pic of my idol >

 

 

BYE-BYE. :D

 

argh... it is honestly 1 of the most boring day i had since the start of sem 2. my best achievement today is to draw 2 drawings. =.="  and here are my "master pieces"

 

 

 

Da Female Rocker( partial screwed )                                                     eh.. a guy who look indian.

 

yeah so u know how "entertained" i was today. the faci who gave me C for not fulfiling my potentail is not here today = relief faci.

so w14f did a poll and we vote for this relief faci rather than our chem faci. HAHAHAHA~! 

 

oh yeah, i need to save $ for my spending in taiwan. sooooo, i am NOT GONNA TAKE CAB OR WASTE ANY STUPID $.  :D

im so gonna buy buy buy. anddddd i get to explore terminal 3. WOOHOO !

 

ok im tired. bye losers.  did u see my blog missy noobie? if u do msn me (she is suppose to see !)

 

 

 

Dost thou love life?
Then do not squander time,
for that is the stuff life is made of.
-Benjamin Franklin

 

Recently, i am starting to be amazed by some scientist-cum-philosopher quotes which are pretty factual. E.g Charles Darwin.  my blog was described to be Pessimistic and Melancholy. But aint that how life supposed to look like in reality? we faced more of the harsh side and the ugly truth than those "happier" positions. To post the truth and only the truth is my intention and i beg to differ if you're the type who prefer me to "act" and post fun and crazy stuff on my blog. BTW i dont blame anyone or anything. i meant to share my thoughts and stuff through this blog. so its a discussion kinda thing.

 

Anyway, i am starting to hate cognitive(finally). it seems that despite the likes of philosophic and ideologistic thinking, the style of presentation aint my desired one. but i guess everyone has their own preference and apparently im not too pleased with my current faci whom i think has contradicting ideas with me. When i feel like it, maybe i might start a discussion with him. he seem more cocky than aloof to me which is a taboooooo~. aloof should be our word not cocky. FAILED BADLY. modernist ideologists really have no standards :(  -i can imagine Socrates and Descartes jumping out of their graves~! :D

Well, i have a tough path ahead but im so gonna enjoy it. for every event thou encounter is a lesson thou learnt.  the path to science and cognitive is bound-less. happy thinking and nites. :O

 

 

went church in the morning before going to escape. oh man! i wished i werent that brave. escape was seriously insane for me. thank goodness rides like the panasonic rollercoaster and the Invertor is closed. GOD BLESS !   anyway had alot of fun. especially the funny female attendant at the pirate ship. i bet she remember me this high and crazy customer. haha. we sat the pirate ship twice and both times i screammed the loudest and the maddest. :D.

oh ya! before i forget, saw shafiq on the way to receive our room card. haha! this time he didnt spot me with a girl. hehehe. also we went to this wooden boat thing like a sampan going upwards then splash down thing. OMG MAN!   first slope is only like 5m. i thought it was all. then it came the 15m crazy shit. U SHOULD SEE MY FACE THEN. i bet those controllers who took my picture from the cam is rolling on the floor laughing.  NOT TO FORGET I WAS TOTALLY WET AND I DIDNT SEE THE PONCHU AVAILABLE. $%$%^# !!

got to know guohao's fren Spencer. a guy who can communicate with me pretty well. :D   then we all went to have pastamania. u bet i was freezing all the way through. my parents are back from Genting! AS USUAL, more clothes for me again^! :DDDDD  and its confirmed.

 

IM GOING TAIWAN ON 15DEC!  :D

byebye. :P

a contemplative and interesting week. hop into the new class of w14f. been pretty still and calm at the moment without much infliction of any bad vibes or anything. JUST YET. as the prodigy predicts, this class seem pretty bonding or rather we are a bunch of slackers. ( im guilty of it i know ) 

a good pic to describe my current mood and also most of my mood of this week. monotonous and melancholy.

just feeling very lazy and very uninterested with my surrounding. blinded in fact. =.=

anw my class possesses a couple of interesting figures. will post more when i know them better.

let me list the few people i have asssociates with or i can remember.

Nigel Flannan Alex - 1st day i get to know him. break dancer that often left me muscling my stomach laughing. :D

Nyssa - an active and i presume i can say bubbly girl. pretty hard not to notice her especially with her random loud HELLO!

Rachel - ahha, complain queen. like the title, this girl can rant all she like and keep telling me. no lor, i not complaining lor. and this is her msn language: TIRED SIOSXZSXZSXZ !. yup so u think about it yourself :)

Cherie - hmm, a girl whom i enjoy chatting with. at least she left me laughing like mad also. ya. lol ! :)

Szehui - eh this girl. she attitude me on msn. so i dont wanan say gd stuff about her. LOL ! jkjk. ermm she likes taiwan idol dramas? thats all i remember actually. lol

Kebao - ahha my 同乡(mainland china) lol. keep bombarding him about china topics. 我们爱国啦！ :D

Vanessa Wong - haha. this girl calls me jake so i m enjoying it :) yup and can really chat well with her :)

ok there are many more such as ng min,vincent,mikael,sandy.....

now that im done, i just realise i done a summary of my class. LOL !

yeah. if u notice i start from dull to hyper. so ya. have fun. BYE.

- cant wait for gym

- Jakephilosophy

 

 

Firstly,rachel yap from W45Q requested for more pics in my blog like 2 months ago. so here u go. some outdated pics.

first up, my Transformer !

 

as the title mentioned, rp got itself some popularity back and of course thanks to UT 3. apparently i been asked by so many people of my results that it seem as if i was interrogated. well, i couldnt say i was happy nor was i upset about it. i just felt neutral about it.

for those who are so kapo about it here u go,

Maths - C+ (overall B)

Science - C+ (overall B)

Cognitive - A (overall B+)

Communication - C (overall C+)

Enterprise - C+ (overall B)

 

heh. pretty boring results. Bs and C.  anyway, some minor update. been going out or staying at  home for some games. also i kill LOTS of time with the online television in my lappy. 康熙来了!  

seeing my results somehow makes me fired up for school to resume. the urge and rush for results. i have nothing else to say to u guys. rock on my vintage rockers! :P

 - a pic of me drew by SANJIT GURUNG and a random tissue being vandalised by me.

 

 

havent been updating for quite sometime. being trying to find a topic to chat about but futile. just gonna update what happen to me recently.  just 2 days back, caught a stomach flu. been vomitting and gonig to the toilet numerously. one of the toughest period of my life i would reckon. nothing much pleasant to talk about it besides the fact that i had a speedy recovery. just something disgusting to share, i vomitted 3 different colours of liquid in 1 single trip to the toilet and it was 24 hours dated food devoured by me (yuck!)

now for something special. just ytd night, i dreamt that i, ram and a familiar girl was in the same class, studying in Yishun Junior College(0.o)
yeah very weird i know. but the amazing part is that the dream was so realistic that i woke up thinking that everything seem so true. strangely in the dream itself i was talking to myself saying :" i think i only pass 4 or 5 subjects. how i enter yishun jc? " - LOL.

- indeed life is a joke. and u happen to be the butt of the joke.


as for the familiar girl, she was more than just familiar. but nothing much happen. pretty short-lived deam. but it felt pleasant. :)

been sometime since i properly blog about my ongoing. been going out or running. that adrenaline rush that i am feeling. simply feels so realistic. its like i honestly did something and receive the after-effects in down-to-earth fashion. anyway, been running and it helpes me in my reasoning and thinking.


still many more upcoming events and stuff to do. but 1 problem surfaced once more. it seem as if im doing all these to numb myself in one way or another. the reason? - no faint idea. i wished i had the answers in my pocket. perhaps subconsciously it is that way.


and i been missing this fellow friend who seem to be is a dedicated guy who is very real and trustworthy.




and i found a word to describe my aura. Melancholy.

if you're unhappy just behave unhappily.  -you have the right to
 


pretending is only your protective colour









                                                                    disappointed  :(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_MKekQocKu4

-Redwan Ali - You Make Me Feel Brand New

Lyrics:I am but a foolish man
With the only love in his eye
The rain may come, the sun may set
But I'll never let you go

All I need is your love
To hear you say that I am yours
So tell me now and show me how
I could be your better man

I'll surrender everything just to be with you
There is no one in the world like you
You make me real

And I'll cross every ocean
Just to be with you
Baby you're my dreams and you're my soul
You make me real

Chorus:
Just like a flame
You're burning in my soul
You wake me from the cold
You make me real

Cause' like a flame
You brighten up my world
Every corner bears a print of you
You really make me feel brand new

sanjit dont worry man, i will jog with u during the chalet. haha. but to do so, i must carry out my intensive training first. i wont collapse before u i tell ya !.


anw, had pastamania with friends and folks. those at there, yes u got it right. my jacket had the taste of my soup before anyone else did.   :(


quit studying for science UT 3. i decided to leave it to my brain. really couldnt focus at all. no idea what else to rant. i will post after UT 3 i suppose. goooooooooood niteeeee :DD




- my boy, i know its hard on you. just bear with it. your TIME will come. god bless. :)

i am in a period of transition and improvisation. son, all these are gonna pass soon. just bear with it.  Father in heaven will guide you through. i can only pray UT 3 be gone in a blink of the eye. till then, things are looking better, grey clouds are dispersing.  may the end product be amiable. god bless.

well first of all i am 18 and had a great meal with charmaine. * thanks for the keychain * :)   not to forget every single one in one way or another wishing me happy birthday. my heart goes out to all of you. thank u all very much from the bottom of my heart. god bless u all too.

hmm, i guess life itself is unpredictable and things could change anytime any moment. but it is the ups and downs that brought us misery,joy and most importantly, a great lesson of Life. i once thought of a contradicting question. what make us ideologists and philosophers? is it the wisdom? the knowledge? the interest in the topic?  - none of the above. the answer is - we are who we are.
rather than hugging the status as 'ideologists or philosophers'  they are simply a burden we carrying upon ourselves and are nothing more than a name. - we dont need additional ego.

well, life did post many challenges for me this semester in RP, i couldnt be sure whether i did pass it or no. but 1 thing is for sure.
i came with an aim and i am progressing well. in fact, i ended the first semester on a high and had additional aims waiting to be acheived.
( do i sound like i m doing RJ ? lol )

hehe. i took the most time to come up with this post. i have many things to share but, i dont know where to start. anyway, life can only get better from now and the friends that are following me through this, once again thank u all

exams are coming.  i will FORCE myself to study. (:

till then.
thanks with love.
-Ernest